Day 27: Felicity and the Gatekeeper Inamorata.

"Continual success in obtaining those things which a man from time to time desireth, that is to say, continual prospering, is what men call felicity: I mean the felicity in this life. For there is no such thing as perpetual tranquility of mind where we live here; because life itself is but motion. and can never be without desire, nor without fear, no more than without sense." Sense to endure what we cannot change or clarify, for this life is constantly in motion, and although the mind is as well it often struggles to keep pace with the movement of knowledge.




You follow a path that society guides you down, but as we move into autonomy and solidarity in adulthood we find the pathway ends and we are standing on the edge of a cliff with the chance to fly or fall. I've been growing these metaphysical and metaphorical wings all my life, I'm ready to fly.

Day 26: The Consciousness of the Gatekeeper

Often the Gatekeeper does not let those that deserve the requiem past. Who am I to dictate a transitional stage of a being into the world of the omnipotent? I have received my sponsorship for my training to be a Suicide Prevention Interventionist, and I have completed Module 1, and I've already learned so much. Apparently those that protect those from death are named 'Gatekeepers' in the field... Quite fitting and so philosophically motivated. (above is the female gatekeeper butterfly) may I spread my wings and fly like her.

Day 25: Rant Your Heart Out

I'm always willing to listen.


We can't help the situations we get into, but we can help where we go. If you need a change starting thinking of your destination, I need you to go and write for an hour, I know it sounds odd, but go sit down and write about how you are feeling, what you want to do for yourself, what part you want this world to play. This life isn't easy.

We may not be able to always get what we want but we can sure as hell fight for it. You can be who you want to be, you don't have to look down on yourself. 

Life hands us obstacles to see how we can do and how much we can take and with every hurdle we jump we continue to gain speed and confidence to jump higher. 

You deserve an amazing life, and you know you can have and give everything deserved, but maybe others aren't ready. Often it's hard because maybe you don't feel ready either. If there is love in your hearts you guys can make it, just always stay true to what you believe, if you believe you need change, I want you to think about what kind of change you need!


I'm always moving towards the positive world.

It is estimated that there are at least 4.5 million suicide survivors in this country. I'm one of them. Today is International Suicide Survivors Day. Tell those you love how much you care, and that you are willing to listen, you can make a difference.

And if anyone understands that trying to find creativity in a world so constructed and confined to contentment in intellectualized ignorance it's me.

Keep fighting.

Day 24: A Constant Need to Help

Often I wonder if other people have a constant desire to help others, if it is a staple in their life like mine. I feel like helping others is a way to help myself... is that weird? I guess I just learn from other people's mistakes too..

Study group tomorrow, same thing with Sunday!
Intense Midterm seasons, sorry if the posts are inconsistent xox
Cecilia

Day 23: A Walk on the Bright Side

There always seems to be a line that divides the emotions of life, on one side we have depression, anxiety, remorse, rejection, facade and on the other side love, lust, empowerment and reality. We are constantly looking for the "path less traveled" the path that many others choose not to break. I wander occasionally in my mind hoping to find the predestination and boundaries of this path but it seems so unattainable with no time to gather my thoughts and energy.

Day 22: Discomfort in your Energies

            There seems to be a flow of energy surrounding those around me, a flow of energy stagnant with negativity. He pesters you, shows his inability to be controlled and emotionally content. I wonder the rationale in making oneself lonely and behind closed doors and isolated from the flux of society. You cannot make an adjustment without the availability of exposure.  Can a society so racked with pain and restlessness allow one to grow into a beautiful person without qualm?

Day 21: Change is the Only Constant.

It's funny how we are so scared of change, assuming that fear is found in the unfamiliar. But change is the only constant in this word. Change is the only thing I can guarantee other than death itself. But I refuse to be scared of change, there is only positivity in the discovery of self in change. I am not scared to become something new, envelope the nature of change.

To see the beauty in constancy and uniform motivation and movement.

Be the change you want to see in the world. The world is ever changing, allow it to change for the better.

Day 20: Can Wisdom Be The Greatest Asset?

Perhaps it is not the case that "Wisdom outweighs any wealth" especially when that wisdom keeps you from your shot at a life of fulfillment. We are taught that the most intellectual being is the most favourable but perhaps there should be a motion towards the most favourable being happy. We constantly beg and ask for answers without attempting to find it in ourselves. Who are we to ask this of a being who deserves the silence and refuge in their intellectual contempt and constraint.

There is space for us our there, regardless of our wealth of knowledge

Day 19: RAWR

If you never have been to University you will never know how much freaking stress and work it takes to get through the week. This week is going to be hectic! I'm thinking about entering into the Nipissing 3rd Annual Blog Contest... We will see how that goes. And I'm also still looking for sponsorship with the Imalive.org suicide prevention, I also have to apply for college, perhaps scholarships, AHHH stress

Day 18: Clarification lost.

Perhaps the problem in the search for happiness in a world so digested is a lack of courage to face the fact that this world is in shambles. We have caused this world to lose its clarity in simplicity. One may never find happiness in a world so disjuncted. We attempt to attain this ever changing mark of perfection.

Day 17: A Day After a Tribute

              Remembrance day has gone back into slumber, but the world is stirring. We cannot doubt that people are upset, that people feel as though they too were disrespected when their families aren't mourned but soldiers are. Humanity needs to take a page out of the book of love.  Others have lost people too.. We aren't the only ones that have lost loved ones in war, it may seem selfish for them to write banners like this: http://www.godlessgeeks.com/LINKS/Islam_Peace.htm, but it is also savage for us not to mourn the deaths of everyone. I can see where they are coming from, some of them have lost children, we lost people that primarily chose to go to war. I would eradicate war, I would make everyone feel empathy, and I would make everyone love one another... This isn't going to go peacefully. Remembrance Day isn't the only day that deserves mourning, ITS EVERYDAY! 
                 Who is there to help the innocent people around the world that are murdered from personal agendas? I think it was disrespectful that they chose to choose violence like everyone else has. There can be a change in this world, and retaliating isn't going to help. I hope the world figures this out, because I don't want to die, and noone deserves to. I'm not going to lie. I was disgusted when I saw this, and I will not remain silent. But I will not let my emotions get the best of me, because I don't know the pain they feel in their hearts, Something really bad happened to these people, some HURT them. Imagine you getting to the position to write such hateful things on boards like that. It isn't about religion to them anymore, religion is just the avenue in which they choose to speak, some choose bombs, some choose words, some choose unpeaceful demonstrations. This world will not change if we aren't willing to change with it. I will never think a religion is the problem, people disagreeing is the problem. There is so much beauty in religion (mind you I'm agnostic). I refuse to allow people to think that violence or anger, or catharsis will solve this. 

                  I just wish we could have one day of peace. JUST ONE DAY SO EVERYONE REALIZES HOW BEAUTIFUL IT IS, AND WOULD STOP FIGHTING. But I can't so I do it in small ways. I am not judging you, and I'm not judging them, this is painful to watch, a woman who loves her home country against people who want peace and to love theirs... It's worth tears. A day after remembrance day and I bet it won't be a discussion topic until next year this time. People need to realize that we don't have to be like this, but people are often limited to their ignorance and eventually ignorance is overshadowed by arrogance. I just want world peace. And I don't care if it sounds like a pageant platform, people need to wake up.

LOVE IS THE ANSWER. WAR SHOULDN'T EVEN BE A QUESTION.

Day 16: Remember

Remember those of which who were stronger than you and who could do what you refuse to. I thank you for everything you did, everything that is being done. I am sorry for the loss of all people involved in war, I'm sorry anyone has died, I'm sorry I couldn't intervene. I would eradicate war. Often I wish humanity wasn't so anthropocentric, ethnocentric, and obsolete in spiritually. I hold solace for those that choose to be hurt in wars over private agendas.


I'm sorry, and again thank you.


Cecilia
R.I.P.

Day 15: Unabashedly Insecure Ignorance

I feel like I will never be able to rid you of your intelligence, and often I feel as though I am to weak to become stronger than an average devotee. Everyday I wonder what's next, but you already have a head start and you are always a week ahead. It's okay to live in the present moment, it's okay to hold some truth in ignorance. Knowledge is not consistent or reliable however sociability can be.

Don't be scared to fall.

Day 14: Suicide Prevention Training

Hey Guys,

So, I am currently looking for sponsorship in Suicide Prevention training.
The Kristin Brooks Hope Center, To Write Love On Her Arms and PostSecret have partnered together to launch IMAlive, the first live online crisis network with 100% of its staff certified and trained in crisis intervention.

Please follow the link, if you cannot support me , It's okay! Read my Bio, and if you could help I would really appreciate it and will make sure your money is well spent.
Even if you want to donate 50 cents it will help!

https://www.preventsuicide.us/99club/personal_pages.php?ppid=513

Day 13: Uninspired

Perhaps it is the material to which I am expected to regurgitate but so simply put I'm feeling greatly uninspired. The lack of excitement in this field is daunting. But it's 11:11 and my wish is to finish this paper on Change detection (SEEE INTERESTING RIGHT!?)

Day 12: Symbols of my time

This entry may be ever growing, for it is the most beautiful part of who I am, a part I will never give up, a piece of my flesh, a piece of my heart. This tattoo is my statement towards peace, my respect for those fallen. I have a hard time identifying with the idea of using a white poppy as a new image for the hope of peace, when this symbol this beautiful incarnation of respect is to me. Today is the first day that I will begin a project when everyday I will introduce a piece of my soul to you, an object that means more than the world that I live in. The Buddhists say not to allow your soul to be burdened by materialistic objects, but these objects are merely a reflection of my heart and not only a materialistic "things" these are part of me. I hope to get to know you more everyday

R.I.P Marion Chambers,

You will never be forgotten. 9/11/07

Day 12: New Series Coming Soon!

It seems as though I've missed a day, boo, I'm so predictable, but I have decided I'm going to do a Memento Mori series. So prepare to see things that mean the world to me :)

Day 11: Todays Horoscope . . .

At the end of the day, you're the one who has to look in the mirror and know who you are, Gemini. Think about this the next time you're tempted to make a rude comment or spread a displeasing fact about someone else. One side of you may be able to rationalize behavior that the other side simply despises. Today look at both of sides of yourself, not just the one that please you.

Day 10: The Future is Hard to See

Day 9: Educational Fallacy

Education is pointless if you're not learning. It's not the teachers or the social situations can only help you learn, but most importantly it's your willingness to succeed and endure. We learn from thinking outside the box, perhaps we are just thinking in another box... Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.

School is tiring

Sincerely

Me